You.

You dont know how hurtful and how hard it for me. Indeed, I’m a stupid girl.

 

cause none of it was ever worth the risk

When it comes to human relationships, its not about who meet whose needs. But rather, putting the other person’s needs above yours. Even if it means not having your needs met, getting yourself hurt and ripping yourself into pieces. You would rather do that and give your all than see everything falls apart.

 

and when trust is broken.

Building walls is not just about protecting yourself, it’s more than that. It’s about blocking people out. You label your safe zone, and what’s not. The more people force their way in, the more you build and the walls just get thicker and taller. Isn’t it?

 

and I’m not okay.

Breathe felicia. You’re gonna be fine, you’re going to be just fine.

 

and its so true

Sometimes it’s easier to pretend, than to face. Sometimes its easier to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again. Sometimes it’s easier to be numb towards certain people and not let them nearby. Sometimes it’s just because I cared too much.

 

Run.

  

 

This is an insane world.

 

The night perhaps.

You don’t know how it feels to be the one on the receving end with those emotions. Just know that I’m trying, trying very hard.

 

Perhaps.

“If you gave someone your heart and they died, did they take it with them? Did you spend the rest of forever with a hole inside you that couldn’t be filled?”

Jodi Picoult (Nineteen Minutes)

 

Tomorrow is the day.

Alright, it’s done.